Its a beautiful day!

Someone put something in my medicine... But I feel wonderful and feel like I am back to optimistic Heather... it is refreshing!

I am at the library, working away (well going to be) at hw and Senior Project... and I wouldn't rather be anywhere else. Truth is I am a big nerd, I love to learn, I love to do well, I love to be organized, and I love to have a reason... I like to know the future, I like to think I can plan things out, but in reality you can never plan for everything, this is good in many ways, as much as a society we strive for perfection. 

1. I would be out a job if you could plan for everything, b/c then things wouldn't need to be fixed, updated, or altered anything related to planning cities... big bummer there. 

2. life would be boring, if you could plan for everything and make sure everything went smoothly, and you knew every little thing, when would you get excited and get rushes, and see things that make you want to jump up and down with happiness?

Even with the bad that comes from not being able to plan for everything, if you weigh it with all the positives you get out of not being able to plan for every little thing, I would think it was worth it. In love, life, work, play, and everything between... it all happens how it is suppose to, "it all happens for a reason",  "You can't learn lessons without making mistakes" and everything makes you a better person, shapes you to the ultimate you, the person you become is because of your experiences, good and bad.

If you are passionate about something, chances are it is because of some turn of events in your past. The things that make you happy, that make you sad, make you cringe, or make you jump for joy... are because of the unplanned. 

I get in funks, I will be the first to admit it, sometimes they last for months... sometimes just for a few days. However I am blessed with friends that hang in there with me through it, and once I get past it, you can't hold me back. I will admit it was worth it, it made me a better person, and even standing alone, I am a strong wonderful person that has a great life.  

I also have to admit and accept that even with a degree in planning, can not plan my life, no matter how hard I try and want to figure out how each turn down different paths will take me,I can't. It is a waste of time, time I could spend in the PRESENT, not in the past dwelling on how I got to were I am , or in the future, trying to figure out the "best" option for me. 

Sometimes the best option is not going to be what my mind or heart want, but you know what, it will happen how its suppose to, and I need to give up on planning my life, and just enjoy it, and just plan cities and buildings, lol. (now only if I could listen to myself for more than a few moments)