I am calling myself out

Ok, I know I am a cranky crank crankester right now... but there really isn't much I can do about it... it is what it is. However, I am picking a bone with a small, short converstaion that just pushed the wrong buttons at the wrong time...

So i got my act together and went to the DMV to renew my drivers license b/c its going to expire in a couple weeks and I never got the stuff in the mail to just renew it that way. So i went in, and ended up using my local address on it so that it gets mailed to me here. I was going to have the murrieta address (my parents house) put on their one more time, but then she said whatever address is on it is where its going to get mailed. My mom does mail me my mail every few months, so i would eventually get it, but it might take awhile and I am doing a good amount of driving in the coming month or two, so I figured I better go ahead and use the local one... Arcata, CA. Now some may over exagerate what this implys, some may have no clue where its at.

But I was talking to a friend online and mentioned that I will now have an Arcata address on my license and I didn't know how i felt about that.. just because the plan is not to be from here, just have it as a long layover from college to where I want to go in life, and having it on my drives license just seems to seem more perminate... anyways.. her response was, well if/when i ever get pulled over cops are going to be tempted to want to search my car... (weed association, btw, if you where part of the no clue where arcatas at group, its the heart of humboldt county) then she continues to say it might be fine since who knows how long I am really going to be here....

I know its just because i'm cranky... but seriously...could we stick with my wishful thinking that I wont be here much longer than my year, could we not rub in the fact that I am so far away from friends and family b/c i'm trying to build career experience and be happy with my career choice (rather than you who went after the big pay check, say its not worthe it, that you want out, but seem to be quite happy getting the pay check and being about to travel and do weekend trips whenever you would like, while I have to plan out any trips well in advance to even have a chance of it being possible) and you are doubting that I will be able to find a job somewhere else anytime soon???

You know, it just hurts, it hurts to have friends be bluntly honest about how they feel, when really you want them to be your biggest supporters and make you feel like if you just keep trying, you will get where you want to go in a timely manor...
No, I get the, well you could end up being there for years response....

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I just debate if its worthe it or not, should I just ditch the career path and be in a place I want to be doing another job that pays the bills now and lets me be close to friends. Or will I get there eventually and realize the whole world has passed me by and that I really am just as alone and unhappy there as I am here?? ( I am not unhappy here, but not happy eaither, just content)

(note on this post: I believe I am cranky b/c I have not been running this week, b/c I ran my 1/2 marathon on Sunday (in 2:03:03) and am recovering before I gear up and start trainning for my marathon.)