Feeling Worn down

I have this feeling of being worn down mentally.

I have done a pretty good job of keeping myself busy and entertained and feeling efficent and like I am making good use of my time while Kristopher is at training, until this week.

I don't know what it is, probably truly a combination of the follow, but I am normally so well balanced and able to handle that its not an issue....

I am hoping spewing it out here once will be enough to move forward without feeling like I am going to break down at any moment for some of cantered reason.

So here it goes, please just meet me at the next post (because I am going to just spew as I mentioned above, with no optomistic way of looking at it)

1. Why the hell can't there be an instruction book for spouses that live off post trying to get company sponsored appointments.... Seriously I know its not really the norm, but at the same time, there has got to be more then just me trying to figure this out... and I am an internet search queen... and I can't find what I am looking for.... I called around 15 people this morning and have spent nearly 8 hours looking online to find the information I need... with no clear answer that I have found what I need.....

I need to get a physical done, but I have to have the final paperwork signed off by a military doctor, and I can't find out what I need from my portland oregon doctor so that the military doctor (at ft lewis) will sign off on the paper, so that my husband can submit that (at ft lee), so that they MIGHT change his orders to read accompanied (to korea).

2. The amount of time they require you to submit this paper work in (because there is a no earlier, and a no later date) makes it feel like just not doing it, because after I figure out what the heck I am suppose to do (refer to item 1) they are going to take 2 weeks to tell me its wrong with little direction I am sure....

3. The thought that the military says no accompanied tour, thus leading to a whole new wild goose chase of information of going non-command sponsored.

4. Its nearly Christmas, and my husband is not here yet, so i'm trying to ignore that the majority of people are enjoying family and friends and decorating trees and lights and cookies and the whole 9 yards..

5. My parents are just now realizing I am really not going to be there for Christmas. We invited them months ago to look into coming up for Christmas... thats not helping with the fact my husband isn't here til the 22nd either. ( although I can not imagine the likelihood of this being exasperated if he wasn't coming home for Christmas)

6. My husband is busy... and not a phone person, and a man. So the whole me needing to have him ask me how I am doing, and then not really being able to melt down either (because he can't do anything truly from there to fix anything, and he's got much bigger fish to fry there right now, and he misses me a grip ton too - thus talking about it only really makes it worse, not better) is getting rough...

7. My husband needs my help with paper work - in the way of, "this is what I need you to do, your a smart girl, figure it out, I don't have the time right now and I need your help". No other directions, questions asking time, or information - thus me feeling like its something I should be able to figure out on my own, and when I can't.... like I should of been able to.

8. I want my roommate gone... I don't know if its just because of 1-6 or that she's kinda messy, or that I am just getting older and just wanting my own space now... but I have been 'pulling on my big girl pants' and handling it, and she will be moving out the first week of January anyways, but that can't come soon enough. I am done cleaning the kitchen every day, and the handles and railings, and making sure the freezer door and the front door are closed all the way, and just plain feeling like I am tip toeing around my own house.

9. I don't know where I will be in 4 months... not work wise, not husband wise (as in geographic location to), no house wise. I don't know where to start cleaning, packing, sorting...

10. I am a planner, and I can't freaking plan anything right now.

11. I just finally got to the point that I realize moving overseas is happening very very soon most likely (or at least a big move is happening) and think this may be adding to the stress level. Back in April/May it was a much farther away event.

11.... I feel like there is something I am missing....  maybe it's the trying to figure out how the military will work with moving us (being in Portland and Va with stuff in Wyoming), moving or storing 2 motorcycles, 2 trailers, 2 vehicles, and the rest of our stuff in the 1 month he has from being done in Va, to reporting to Korea....

but i think that is enough for now...

I promise I am really ok.... besides the above mentioned thoughts going through my head... I am really ok : )

A busy month

It has been a busy month since I have last been on here. I enjoyed Thanksgiving with Karen and Kate at their parents house, after we enjoyed a 4 mile Turkey Trot. It was a wonderful way to spend the day with Ruby and the other 'kids'

Since then I am ready to be full swing into Christmas, I created these gems and used some of my Stampin' Up Paper to create the tags. I am waiting for Kristopher to get home the 22nd, and we are going to get a tree then, so for now, this is my corner of Christmas.

As soon as I finished that it was time to prepare for my second workshop for Stampin' Up, and my first one at someone else's house. It went well, and we created these adorable bag toppers that where a huge hit - and someone had a stapler that came to the rescue as the last one went into the demonstration I created there, (mini freak-out moment)

The party went well and many of the girls are already talking about wanting to get together to create cards after the new year begins! The only danger is that others will be excited with me now!

And of course, this little girl isn't a fan... but she does love those pillows still : )

Oh and I almost forgot to share this!

I made Kristopher an advent calender - and then stamped and tagged things... its on its way to him now... and I have a little bit more time to do the last 3 (he is home the 22nd so 21 is the last one I sent off to him. : )

I hope you are ready for the holiday season, I am almost done shopping (one more gift to get - but I know what it is I am getting, just have to put it together) Then its the wrapping and card part, and don't you worry - I will share!

thankful filled week.

I am thankful for oh so much,
so as we continue down this thankful blog road...

I am thankful for wonderful women around me that keep me smiling, busy, and encouraged while my husband is away.

I am thankful for ladies that came and enjoyed my workshop for Stampin' Up and made me feel like I did a job well done, even with only two attendees.

I am thankful for sudo moms and sisters.. becuase as much as I love my real ones, the sudo ones are amazing too.

I am thankful for work... honestly I can't complain truely about the flexibility and continual honesty in most things done there and for me... overall, really can't be too much less than thankful.

I am thankful for my wonderful, hardworking husband, especially when life day schedules don't make it possible to talk, he understands, and I am sure makes him sad in the same way it makes me sad, that we won't have dinner together, and we won't go to bed together for another 4 1/2 weeks, but once that comes, it will be lots of all of the above, but we know we will talk tomorrow and it'll be alright.

Thanksgiving thanks

I am thankful for a wonderful husband who although tough and a bit bullheaded at times, adores me and takes care of me, even when I'm freaking out and believe I may be bleeding to death.

Thankful for a plane ticket that brought him home this weekend to me.

The dresser that we finally refinished, two years after getting and saying we would... It's now only one later of polyurethane away from being done done.

Thankful and blessed for the wonderful time we were able to spend at home together. Being a fairly normal couple.

Thankful for the longest portion of our apartness to be done.

Thankful for the ability to afford another ticket for my husband to be home for Christmas and New Years, I feel soo blessed.

Thankful for good friends coming to visit soon.

Thankful for stamp projects to keep my mind busy and entertained.

Thankful for open ended possibilities.

Thankful for a job that just gave me 4 days off in a row.

Thankful for a dog that loves with no end ( even though she's snoring right now)

Thankful for food to last me til Christmas, literally.

Thankfully thankful

So I missed a week.... however,

I am so thankful for a wonderful husband, I arrived home this evening to an unexpected package from the Mr. , and inside was two stamping punches... he is, adorable, thoughtful, and mine... seriously, what guy buys paper punches....  : )

Sixth months married... grant it, we have been together for probably roughly a month and a half (guestimation there) of that time, but I can tell you I never imagined the different things we would go through and learn and become in that time.

Coffee... sorry its here again... coffee is simply put, a mood booster, morning greeter, afternoon pick me up, good conversation, and many other things... just plain lovely.

Fuzzy children.. because they are always happy to see you, always ready to cuddle, and always super cute, oh and the added bonus of being a dust buster...

Stampin' Up.... a hobby, craft, and pleasant enjoyment.... (I also may have made my Christmas cards yesterday....on Halloween)... curved corner punches and embossing powder entertained me for a few hours yesterday....

now off the bed after a glass of wine and some "Rules of Engagement" episodes (my current Netflix tv series obsession... more of an 90's sitcom feel, and makes me laugh and smile)

Hope you all had a wonderful Halloween... and are excited for the next few weeks of holiday prepared-ness...

I will have to say that Kristopher is coming next weekend (Sooooooo excited) so I may be a little pre-occupied for next weeks Friday Thankfulness-es. but we will be sure that Thankgiving is documented and shared (We are celebrating thanksgiving next weekend.... so you'll have time to decide what you want to borrow ; ) )

Oh stamps

Oh boy, did I buy some stamps today... Well actually I bought a whole bunch of stuff. For example; 12 ink pads, 2 giant stamp sets, 3 packs of paper, a sweet corner punch, embossing powder, embossing ink, blender pens... Ggggssshh.
Oh and the deal, I am officially a demonstrator. Now what this means and how this develops, is yet to be seen. However for now, I've got stuff for Christmas cards, and a bit extra as a bonus. I was within what I budgeted, so can't complain there. Now just for all the goodies to arrive!
That way I can make more stuff like this!

Pillows!

See what I did today.... Excuse the futon cover, replacing that with a fresh clean one is in the works